Who moved my cheese?
Maybe its time to move on again... in search of other new frens...
I really need something new in my life. A new job, new frens, a new image...
This the second time my boss rejected my application for enrichment course.
This is it liao... 1st time he rejected stating reasons being project busy...
Now I'm idling and he still reject... 3 yrs with the co n this is how u treat me? LOL
Sorry dudes I'm no ball carrier n i dont suck up to the bosses.
So boss instead send those ball carriers to courses which dont even relate to work!
My CISSP course isnt even more than 5k before CITREP. No bond no shit... Fine lor...
On personal issues...
I'm actually quite glad my fren is able to find someone whom she can relate to n hopefully trust in future =)
"You stopped me from going back to being an ah lian"
ty lor, even though its most likely BS but i'll just leave it as that... You say i listen...
Remember... be good, for ur self. Never ever turn back...
Another one... I would never understand the meaning of "I prefer male dogs" @@
This is where i move on for myself =)
Woot i screwed up again? hahaha
Nothing new, me screw up alot of thing in life... frens, work, life... zzz
This time round most prolly i lost this "gd fren" for sure
Something i learnt.. "Don't question her.. Especially her actions"
*sweat* Why? Guys been trained since young, things you duno must ask mah...
Especially in ppl's actions n behavior...
So don't ask = bochup = Dont care = not me @@
I was pointed out that asking her is questioning her = questioning my trust in her = i dont trust her @@
Contrary to what i said that i would trust her no matter what happens...
This made me self reflect... maybe when she slaughtered my heart the other time is really my fault...
Cos i promised to trust her n i still questioned her on why she's being so mean...
I didnt understand then, what she's feeling when another fren was shoting her...
And I am suppose to be her fren n trust her... My actions to her is i dont trust her
I've got to give her space n just be there when n if she needs me...
Other than that I cant do anything liao. Hands tied behind my back.
So now i get it.. I deserved it.
It seems like she's troubled by some matters n I'm suppose to give her some "space"
Cheem hor? Me still not quite understand... but gasping some ideals
But these few things make me wonder...
Do i really trust her?
Do i really only trust everyone else except myself?
Am i really a gd fren?
So maybe I'm not such a gd fren after all... hahaha
