Those whom don't remember the past are condemned to repeat it
"she's the type of woman where u could strap dynamite n walk into a
room full of ppl n take out everyone in it" describing an ex-wife.
she kissed him goodbye before comitting suicide..
ermm I feel he is so wrong, no doubt her character might be super
unbearable but he can't escape, part of e responsibility of her
actions hv to be beared by him..
there must be a way for him to hv averted e disaster, just how? wld be
e question!
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nvr nvr nvr take indirect flights!
nvr nvr nvr take indirect flights no matter wat reasons... this e
first n final time I'm gona be doing this! lol there's always
locations whr u hv no choices cept to fly indirect but this trip is
horrid, to e max? think budget's better! seriously man! it's a combi
of budget n e ugly Chinese! haha yeah previous it's either u face e
crappy budget OR e ugly Chinese, now take it to e nxt lvl ;)
ps : btw i'm writing this iluminated by gd old 70's disco lights!
sunlight refractions off either e lady's gilttering blouse or her gem
studded watch. *rolls eyes* dang which idiot opened his port side
window n allowed e morning sun in man! sld be shot when everyone just
keeps it CLOSED for obvious reasons! gawd! wait he's trying to enjoy
looking at e morning sun off his maiden voyage home? @@; idiot
numbskull zzz
fucking torture! reminder again, nvr ever take an indirect flight
transiting in Beijing or on china air zzz dnt let me start on e flight
svc man... to date I dnt think any of e budget hv any worser svc? rofl
wait no svc is better than fully fucked svc! sigh... can't blame
them... they ARE crap -,-;
this is gona ruin e trip... sldn't hv pushed for it. fuck it ain't my
business nor my job to source for games... esp when working for a boss
who's crap too! makes me wonder how they make e decision to license
these games man... I've always tot it's e combi of ROI n market
perception which determines thgs, but it ain't man...
hmm only biz or 1st gets bananas for breaky while e rest gets nothg?
hahaha god how I wana gt out of this hole...
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Bitter medicine is good medicine x,x is it? 0o;
Her words were like hail in summer sunshine, brutal fast n deadly
accurate. blood inducing. merciless. cruel. x,x;
"u let her undervalue u till u are worser than negative value
u let her step over yr limit n somemore n u can't stop her or control
her"
everythg is yr own doing, it is not her fault but yr fault tt thgs r
this way today
I've nvr blamed her for thgs tt hv happened, how I wish it's easier to
blame her or anyone else. but I didn't, I'll carry tt responsibility
till e end..
no use can't change topic, she's like a bull dog, once latch to a
topic u can't escape x,x;
it is over already, y keep hammering on it?
"ya, but did u learn e lesson? u've paid a high price can u make sure
e nxt time thgs like tis won't happen?"
there is no answer for her onslaught, only time n my nxt r/s wld I
know if i had truely learnt n repent.
"u need to gain back yr value, change yr outlook, love yr self more"
I wld but I wld need help too.
"wat? everytime need my help I'm v busy k! go learn it yr self!"
... ya wld need opinion too mah!
"be daring n go n try it out yr self! do somethg different n gt
somethg different!"
... ppl like me need others to bounce off opinions n choices too, low
confidence also need somewhr to start first. everythg is a learning
process.
-,-; diaoz chicken n egg issue, sigh no wonder when everyone heard
she's coming out. all wld Siam her ;p
tt a side, I need to start walking on my own :)
ps : nxt time I call u 1yr later u better not be at geylang east
cleaning other's car w wet tissue ah! lol 10z again
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Touch wat touch! Poke wat poke!
-,-; become laughing stock man... freaking doc at ttsh check my back, after leave his clinic pain in back.. pain in legs.. WTF~
"Wow. So u ok? How to sign cheque? U wanna cab to office sign then go back?"
"Ya better check man i know the pain from back runs down to the legs man no joke lol keep me updated lol tonight i got rt btw"
"Due to e car accident? Take care! "
"He 'touched' eww. Haha. Did u ask y is there is more pain?"
"worst case slip disc"
"Ok tk gd care. U stil can go korea? Stil haven't got back yr last claim? Yen said u r comin to ofc?"
"Wahahaahahahahahahah" baskett I sld kill him man lol
Dang I love iPhone 3.0's copy n paste! lol
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Talk to me, share with me, smile for me
I love to listen to ppl sharing their stories, sad fun anger or just
plain boring history :)
u guys wld find it amusing if I said many gers i'm with, it's just to
feel their warmth n hear them speak of their stories ^^
it let me feel e warmth of e skin, e closeness, e feelings portrayed.
even if it might just be a story to bluff me, it allows me to feel e
connection...
thgs I yearn to feel which was lacking in my life...
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It was fun
it started last comdex w bob, he brought her back into my life. I
didn't even know e name of e angel whom gv me golden smiles like e
sunlight. e last time I saw her she was so happy n gving some guy a
great big hug, she is so happy.
thgs turned serious after e 3 nights she spent at my place... whr I
promised her to be by her side n supporting her all e way.
mths flew by n alot of happy moments hv passed
celebrating her 20th b'day at sizzler, she loved e artichoke salads n
soups.
celebrating x'mas eve at xiang's whr she left early to go meet her guys.
celebrating new yr's day at her work place w all her guy frens
celebrating v'day w her, not really w her.. she was w another guy fren
went thru alot of "adventure"; a week of taking care of Yuki, hunting
for her hamsters, going for her various tests, fetching her to her
various work..
I got momo n driving w her in e car park, go into jb n finally losing
momo..
we went for Japanese lessons n planned to go for more n even planned
to go for spanish lessons...
even when thgs went downhill I still remember some of these fond
memories ^^
yes alot was planned for e future ^^
how I wish thgs didn't gt stuck, oh well~ yeah it was fun n I look fwd
to having more fun :)
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Words of refrain
>,< I feel so much like SMS her...
"pls keep looking at yr sky n smile, be happy whenever u possibily can :) u r like e clouds, always free, always abv me. just like when u step on my feet n we walked tgt ^^;"
but I cldn't.. my words wld sleep in slumber just like my feelings.. :(
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Wise words from one of my pesky angels
(10:27 AM) Fierce Angel :
*yeee agree
(10:54 AM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*agree wat?
(10:55 AM) Fierce Angel :
*your msn pm
(10:56 AM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*@@;
*LOL u got blog meh~ :P
(10:56 AM) Fierce Angel :
*not mine lor.. :P but ur list of gfs loe
(10:57 AM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*i where got list of gf wor~ hahaha
*wat u think ghosts of gf past? LOL
(10:57 AM) Fierce Angel :
*:P
(10:59 AM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*she posted this in her blog after seeing my MSN DM
http://www.elyricsworld.com/whatever_works_for_you_lyrics_donnellshawn.html (11:01 AM) Fierce Angel :
*hauhauhaa..
(11:02 AM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*i wonder if i sld reply her...
(11:03 AM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*or just keep mum
(11:10 AM) Fierce Angel :
*keep mum.. :P cos the more u reply the more she will reply u.. and then it's a never ending story
*hoho
(11:11 AM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*ya tt's wat i'm thinking too
(11:25 AM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*=(
*i still feel its a loss...
(11:25 AM) Fierce Angel :
*...
*why
(11:26 AM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*well breaking up no matter how u see it is still a loss
(11:27 AM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*u know losing wat is impt to u?
*no matter wts the reason is still a loss
(11:29 AM) Fierce Angel :
*u officially broken up?
(11:30 AM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*yeah few weeks back
(11:31 AM) Fierce Angel :
*:(
*Haizzzz
*but u broke up for a reason
*so dont think too much abt it
(11:36 AM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*still wld think of her mah...
*i also hope she wld be happy
*=(
(11:37 AM) Fierce Angel :
*in the early stage ma
(11:38 AM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*early or later stage i wld still think of my ex de
*dnt u?
(11:39 AM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*its just tt ex wld be in this special place where its not like u care so much, but also not like u dont care for them
(11:42 AM) Fierce Angel :
*brb
*out
(11:42 AM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*><;
(1:48 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*Her MSN DM....... 我真的很累..
(1:49 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*aka I'm really very tired
(1:49 PM) Fierce Angel :
*... another sad story
*aiya...
*i can read those.. :P
(1:49 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*:P benefit for doubt mah
(1:49 PM) Fierce Angel :
*she will get over it
(1:49 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*eh i also need to get over it~
*zzz
(1:49 PM) Fierce Angel :
*women is toughter than u think..
*:P
(1:50 PM) Fierce Angel :
*delete her from ur msn pls..
*hahaha
(1:50 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*i know~ she is tougher than me~~~
*eh i del her how many times le lor~
(1:50 PM) Fierce Angel :
*then add back ah
(1:50 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*n i readd her back so many times ><;
(1:50 PM) Fierce Angel :
*aiyo.. :P u worse than me
(1:50 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*ya i more chui n lousy in affairs of the heart then u lor ><;
(1:51 PM) Fierce Angel :
*-.- u are a guy and 30++
*how can that be
*aiskk..
*you more drama
*:P
(1:52 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*i feel like put in my DM... "let it go since u r tired, it is destined we arent meant to be..."
(1:52 PM) Fierce Angel :
*-.- ignore it
(1:52 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*><;
(1:52 PM) Fierce Angel :
*if you really thinking of letting go
*just ignore whatever thing she put in her msn or her blog
*unless u are playing some soap opera drama..
(1:53 PM) Fierce Angel :
*by replying each other through msn msg, is not really solving the problem
(1:53 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*ya me know =(
*but i cant let go if u can sense from my words...
(1:53 PM) Fierce Angel :
*know then do it..
(1:54 PM) Fierce Angel :
*every break up hav its stage, u r on the first stage
*thats why its difficult to let go
*but once you are able to go through this stage, everything will be easier
*i think its u who keep telling me, "time will heal"
(1:55 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*yeah ><
*but no matter how many times it wld still hurt
(1:56 PM) Fierce Angel :
*and everybody knows it.. and get over it.. :D
(1:56 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*sometimes i feel like just asking her.. is tis wat u really wan?
*n she'll tell me up to u
*its ok w me
(1:56 PM) Fierce Angel :
*u know, no matter what question or how many question u ask.. there will be no answer to it
(1:57 PM) Fierce Angel :
*as im sure she also doesnt know what she actually want
(1:57 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*myself i dont wan this... but if she not willing to make the effort to improve thgs... it wld only get worser =(
(1:57 PM) Fierce Angel :
*thats why she told u, "up to u"
*then if you know it, u must let go
*you can accept her the way she is..
*you cant expect her to change either
(1:58 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*ya we're just not meant to be ^^
(1:59 PM) Fierce Angel :
*if you knew it all along.. then stick to it
(2:02 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*i fickle minded can anot? LOL
(2:02 PM) Fierce Angel :
*-.-
*you cant keep thinking of the rs..
(2:02 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*i just need help keep constantly reminding me... whip me up abit :P S&M hahaha
(2:02 PM) Fierce Angel :
*go find new gf
(2:02 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*nah i need to let go... move on then when all is ok then look for new gf
*i dont wana be a rebounder
(2:03 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*its not fair to anybody =)
(2:04 PM) Fierce Angel :
*haha.. being fair doesnt do good to anybody
*:P
*world is not fair and everybody know it too
*:P
*we treasure what we have now is also because the world is unfair towards us before
*:P so it's a good thing
(2:05 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*-,-; eh so u mean i sld just grab a gf not cos i really love her but cos i need someone else to replace her? no way man! zzz
*i allowed one of my ex to be a rebounder n till now i still regret it
(2:06 PM) Fierce Angel :
*not just any girl, but at least girl that you quite like or comfortable with la..
*who knows it will grow into someting else
*u will never know
*:D
*at least we try
(2:07 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*ya i tried w her.. n now i'm hurt ><
*tired
*scared
*faithless
*fallen
(2:08 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*:P
(2:09 PM) Fierce Angel :
*thats why its time to let go.. :(
*one or both will be hurt.. but should you regret it? NO..
(2:10 PM) Fierce Angel :
*cos at least u tried, and when it didnt work out.. no body is to be blamed.. you are just not meant to be together
*and stop wasting time mourning over it, time is precious..
(2:11 PM) Fierce Angel :
*dont regret it when you finally wake up, time has passed few years and you've missed so many chances
(2:11 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*ya... 10z tt's wat i've been feeling all these while... i dnt feel angry w her, i just feel its like a great loss, too early to gv up.. u know tt kind of feeling
*ya lor ><; me old le mah zzz not like u all so young~ hahaha
(2:11 PM) Fierce Angel :
*yupz..
(2:12 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*i must put my DM to be somethg more cheerful n some way to let others come cheer me up n encourage me ^^
(2:12 PM) Fierce Angel :
*although I am younger than u, even me always have the feeling of time passing to fast
*there always not enough time to do things i would like to do when im young
(2:13 PM) Fierce Angel :
*thats why i telling u, dont waste time
*:P cos before u realize.. we are getting older and older
*i still feel im 17
*muahuahuahuaha
(2:13 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*hai hai~ u 17? BS :P
(2:13 PM) Fierce Angel :
*:P
(2:14 PM) Fierce Angel :
*nah.. we can age physically but our mind stop aging ma
*:P
*anyway the number of girls compare to guys in the world is 4;1
*why should you worry
*u can actually have 4 women at the same time
*hauahuahauha
(2:14 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*zzz 1 is enuff lor~ pls~~~
(2:15 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*i not muslim k!
(2:15 PM) Fierce Angel :
*lo
*lol
*:P
(2:15 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*i also v loyal de k~!
(2:15 PM) Fierce Angel :
*ya ya
(2:15 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*eh u know me how long wor? hahaha
(2:15 PM) Fierce Angel :
*i know la..
*:P
(2:15 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*kauz how many times u see me flirt? hahaha
*how i wish i'm like other guys lor... can flirt n so easily get over gers ><;
(2:15 PM) Fierce Angel :
*but when it's not urs.. there is no point to loyal over that item lor..
(2:16 PM) Fierce Angel :
*very often
*;p
(2:16 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*over 1 ger nia... sigh... my life is in horrid ruins hahaha
*=___= eh where got lor~ pls~ gv me an exmple of when u see me flirting? LOL
(2:16 PM) Fierce Angel :
*aiyo... i keep thinking... how come all my guys friends so drama like u
*-.-
(2:17 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*cos we gt no alternate places to vent our questions n doubts?
(2:17 PM) Fierce Angel :
*tot drama queensss are enough but the drama kings also join the party
*:P
*haha..
*and too bad that my exes got over me like .... over night?
(2:17 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*tt's y i say... i sld be like those casanovas la... gt over gers so easily... everyday change different ger rite? LOL
(2:17 PM) Fierce Angel :
*hahahah
(2:18 PM) Fierce Angel :
*ya, thats should be the case..
*:P
*aiya.. u can think abt it.. but dont let it bother u
*it will heal
(2:18 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*me loyal la zzz as a fren u know how loyal i am le ><
(2:19 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*kauz maybe tt's y i cant let go of such thgs so easily bah
(2:20 PM) Fierce Angel :
*u need me to slap u?
(2:20 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*10z for ur words n advice leh ^^ really appreciate it n hope i cld gt over her soon
(2:20 PM) Fierce Angel :
*:P
*a wake up slap
(2:20 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*if u slap me n it wld help i dnt mind lor =(
(2:20 PM) Fierce Angel :
*aiyo.. that advice, im pretty sure you heard it from everybody
*hahaha.. and urself know it too
*u just need someone to vote for the thought
(2:21 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*ya i hear it 101 times le but i jst need to keep hearing it ><
(2:21 PM) Fierce Angel :
*of course it would help, the pain from the slapping can make u forget her at least for few hours
*hahahah
*or let me help u think of 101 ways to revenge your ex
*hauahuahauhauhauhauhaaaaa
*that would be very fun
*:P
(2:26 PM) Fierce Angel :
*you really are.. that's why u need lots and lots of slaps
(2:27 PM) sixx:
*... ya =(
(2:28 PM) Fierce Angel :
*still dare to laugh
(2:30 PM) Innocent Me~! :p :
*kk i'll post this in my blog~ ^^ hehe
Ouch~ I need to heal back soon n move on with my life... =(
Do u remember? Remember to keep dreaming~
I wanted to say, if u really love me u wld not allow me to go.. u wld
chase after me.. but then again..
how wld u find me? @@; idk
do u rem whr I live?
do u rem whr I hang out?
do u rem wat I like to do?
do u rem wat I like?
do u rem who am I? loli
dnt say "whatever works for you" cos it doesn't.
everyday I think abt u..
wry if u caught a cold..
wry abt do u hv yr proper meals..
wry abt do u hv $ n yr bills
wry abt do u still hv yr ice mtn
wry abt wld u gt cheated
wry abt yr messy n dusty rm
wry abt do u wash up n remove yr makeup b4 u zzz
wry abt e baby whom kicks off her blanket when she sleeps..
too much wry le wor ^^
Do i hv a choice? How do u wan me to keep thgs going when ur heart
isnt on us?
I hv no choice but to keep moving..
nuff said abt -ve vibes loli
I hope u cld change for e better.. u r old enuff to think for yr self
n I'm going to treat u as an equal :)
for now, we'll go abt on our own dreams. so tc of yr self n yr
partner :)
for me myself n I, "no music, no dreams!". I need to find my own mojo
^^.
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Writings in the snow
U r always in my mind. I duno wat u r now doing, but I always imagine
u r having fun w yr frens, always happy smiling. how I wish I'm
besides u now.. but I know by yr side we won't be happy... for wat sld
we keep getting close n hurt?
sry... selfish me hv to end all those sadness...
I can wallow in my own self pity.. my own feelings..
time wld heal our wounds n hopefully make us better ppl. just like the
writings in e snow...
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Usagi drop... The little girl in you
Just started reading this interesting sounding manga, not many of chapters yet. I wonder why its called "Usagi Drop", usagi means rabbit in japanese...
This manga is about a Rin, a 6 yr old girl who's life is abruptly changed when her dad died (her mother abandoned her?) and she found out she is an illegitimate child and hv to stay with the family
From Rin's perspective i would feel she's terrified, your whole world crumbling around you (mother abandoned her?) found out she's an illegitimate child, all the father's relatives shun her and pushing away the responsibility of taking care of her?
Mothers sacrificing so much for their children?
Diakinchi hv to change his work & lifestyle totally to take care of Rin, mkaing her his responsibility, being responsible for his decision. Accomodating her and stuff like that.
Rin has a major role to play too, being in a different environment, ppl around her gv her those "looks", looking down on her etc... She's going thru alot of stress & changes, having to learn a new lifestyle, new friends & learn how to trust ppl again. There's alot of sad moments as she tried to adapt and Daikinchi isnt the most attentive guy around (but he's better then me ^^;)
I duno wat i'm posting here... just felt those pics of her face looks gd, the feelings...
P0rn star?
Something I heard from e radio ytd, there's tis lady met tis guy whom
turns out to be mr fantastic, romantic, loving, showers her w love,
care, attn. brings her flowers n gifts etc.
only issue is he disappears once a while during e weekends.
so e relationship was in a bliss n went well n he proposed to her n
she accepted it.
just before e marriage her bride's maids prepared for a bachelorette
party n was looking for a stripper? they stumbled upon e groom being a
porn star...
needless to say e whole thg was called off...
hmmm sad man.. but come on la! everyone has a skeleton or two in e
closet.. ya he might not hv told u everythg abt his life, but i'm sure
he did wana tell wife n not hide thgs...
guys hate losing their impt loved ones, telling yr wife u are a porn
star, I think also won't fit well w her views of u nor future
perspective.. yeah u'd be labeled as a f**king bastard n she'll hv a
super short leash ^^m Meow? lol
yes stupid reason which blurrs e judgement...
y can't ppl accept him for who he is? gv him a chance to change! it's
a profession for god's sake! zzz it's not like he's cheating w those
actresses off scene, yes he hid somethg but it's abt accepting
everythg he is... gd bad etc.. who knows maybe after marriage he'll
turn legit n be some small business owner?
look at thgs w a more postive perspective :)
yeah I still think of her everyday, I miss her alot, I initiated e
break up, I am e bad guy, I am e sinner.
yeah i sound super hypocrite frm her perspective... hv anyone frm her
perspective tot why can't u be truthful? why can't u tell me thgs to
simplify ur life?
ignorance is a bliss.. I choosed truth over bliss
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Men Vs Women... 0o;
"if you analyze it a stange kinda way ... i think they are saying women are tougher than men. Men are always wearing huge oversized layers of armor to protect themselves. women are apparently so badass they don't need any of that wussy armor to protect themselves."
ROFL quoted from
http://www.mmorpg.com/discussion2.cfm?thread=220708&bhcp=1&bhjs=0
Being alone =)
Even if i was to immerse myself in constant company...
Even if i was to try and deny that there's nothing wrong about you leaving...
Even if i tried my best to stay cheerful and not think so much about thing...
I still cant help feeling alone... cold... apart...
That is when the heart would start looking back, at things gone past...
Thinking how things would have turned out, if we had made a different decision...
Showers are the most horrid places... alone... with the sounds of the mind... deafening...
Yokai story...
"In one story a man leaves his wife to make a business journey to Kyoto to sell silk. She is distressed at his departure, fearing that he will not return. Seeking to calm her, he promises to be home by autumn. However, war breaks out, preventing him from returning for some years. When he finally comes home to his village, he finds that his old house is surprisingly intact although the neighborhood is desolate. His wife greets him at the door, aged and tearful. The two share their stories of sorrow and separation and then lay down to sleep. When the husband awakens in the morning he find that his wife has disappeared. He soon discovers that he has slept with a ghost; his wife had died of grief years ago."
Story from this PDF
https://eee.uci.edu/clients/sbklein/GHOSTS/articles/Yurei.pdf... what strikes me is some words i read...aged, tearful, sorrow, separation, grief. Some words i like to add faithful, love, trust.
idk.. o'really?
who initiates e break up doesn't matter..
it's gona be e same cycle..
going thru e hurt, e tears, saying all e regrets, realizing e
mistakes, blaming someone for all e pain.. blaming all on e love..
even if we get back, we'll take each other for granted n won't cherish
each other.. n thgs wld hpn again n again..
we both need to grow..
yes I still do love u, but I'm not able to help u grow. for u to grow,
I wld need to leave u.. gomen.. hopefully it's for e best.
I'm always here, just u dnt see it..
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